"MY LIFE AND MISSION FROM GOD"
I was born a black Jew, among a congregation of black Jews, in the city known on the earth as Washington D.C., but is the spiritual Jerusalem. And our congregation stretched across the land of America, and into the West Indies and South Africa. And the name of our tabernacles is the Church of God and Saints of Christ: and the builder was a Prophet of the name William Saunders Crowdy. And he named the land of America, Israel: and Washington, D.C., Jerusalem: and Philadelphia, Zion: and New York, Babylon. And he built the tabernacles without spot or wrinkle in the Gentile time of 1896 with the denomination of Hebrew-Christians.
Now I Cornelius, commonly known as Neal, and Neally among my family: grew as a shy, meek, and naive child in a household of pious Jews. I remember as a little boy spending every Friday night and all day Saturday in church: because for us the Sabbath began at sundown on Friday and did not end until sundown on Saturday. So we spent two-three hours in church on Friday night and returned at 9:00am on Saturday till the setting of the sun. And it was mandatory in our family that we be in church before the sounding of the trumpet: because it was a sin in the heart and my grandmother and grandfather to be late for church.
I can remember vividly, when I was a little boy at the annual Passover feast in Belleville, Virginia, witnessing the slaughter of a lamb for the Passover supper. I remember when my mother, a devoted Jew like her mother and father, left the church because of the corruption that she witnessed. But I was kept in the church by my grandmother, who was the strength of the family, and the strongest faith. But I grew as a child knowing nothing about my religion; nor did I care; until I heard an Evangelist of the name Williamson preach in church one Sabbath, saying: "Moses was a black man: the bible describes him as having wooly hair". In all my years of childhood, that saying stood above all that I had heard in church. And I used those words when my friends confronted me about my religion, which was often, because I went to church on Saturday instead of Sunday, and never celebrated Christmas like everyone else: and because we were black Jews, when Jews were only identified as so-called white people. So I responded to all that confronted me, saying, "Moses was a Jew: and the bible describes him as a black man". That's all I knew; so I was thankful that no one challenged me when I told them that. I think they felt some pride in those words; because they respected my religion from that day on.
Now as I grew during my teen years, I began to feel no special passion for God or religion. I eventually stopped attending church and became engrossed with the carnal mind. But at the age of twenty, I woke one morning from my sleep and felt a new Spirit in me. A realization gripped me, so frightening, that I ran into the bathroom to look at my face in the mirror. What I saw was a new face, though it was the same: because a light had appeared: and I saw the face of Jesus as my own. And visions were given to me, and thoughts, and dreams, and words from the mouth of God. And I began reading the bible for the first time that I could remember, and finding Scriptures as if I had written the bible myself. And I could suddenly see clearly through the clouds that attempt to eclipse Truth, and began unscrambling the puzzle that solved the mystery of Ages. And my battle was fought in my mind: and the battle was my Revelation against my fear of becoming delusional, or following an imagination that is running from reality. The more I thought about those things, the more I researched the Scriptures and the pages of history. The evidence was clear according to the Scriptures and the pages of history: for I discovered that the foundation on which I was born was the chief cornerstone of Jesus Christ and his doctrine. And I grew from believing to knowing, that I am the Chosen One.
Now at the time of receiving my Revelation, which came in the fourth month of the Gentile year of 1979, I was a college student with a part-time job, with women, clothes, money, and fast cars on my mind. But a Great Spirit lifted me up from out of the carnal mind: and led me to write a book, not knowing the purpose or name of the book. Shortly thereafter, I was commanded to quit my job, but I refused, because it didn't seem wise. I thought it was the voice of the devil, trying to deceive me. I prayed to God and asked him how would I know His voice from the voice of the devil? My answer was found in my heart: because my heart is pure. But my flesh was not ready to give up the life of flesh: so I hesitated: because the heart know truth, but the mind must accept truth. And when I hesitated, God took away my female love, and my car, and my comfort. And I tasted the bitterness of death when I miraculously survived the wreckage of my car: because God snatched me from the hand of death to show me His mercy: but left me with the bitter taste of death in my mouth as a reminder of disobedience. Thus, for punishment, I was left broken-hearted, and poor, and alone in flesh. But God was with me: and I obeyed His voice.
So I followed the voice of God, which is the thoughts and instincts from a pure heart, and left my job and school behind: and became a full-time servant to God and a disciple of His wisdom. And I stayed unemployed for 9 years: and in those years, I was in many eyes a parasite and a procrastinator. But I was undaunted by their words and thoughts: and with the Scriptures of Hebrews 11:1 and I Corinthians 15:58 implanted in my forehead, I used the Spirit of Truth as my shield against the doubtful mind, the nervous flesh, and the jokes of men. I spent those 9 years suffering from the emotions of being perceived as a bum: and as a major disappointment in the eyes of my family. But my grandmother cared for me, and supported me, when none else would, even though she didn't understand my actions either. The only other person that was with me from the beginning was a Muslim friend: but envy and jealousy would later destroy our friendship. I pray that he is alive in flesh, so I might be able to re-unite with him on earth: for I am not innocent of wrongdoing: even unto him. So let us walk together again in the same Spirit: for Akir Kabir was a friend of mine.
Now during those years of refusing to labor for the Gentile: I pondered over many things; but was wise to worry about nothing. Those were the days of a great tribulation: for my patience and persistence had to endure every second of those years. And during those many days and nights of suffering the emotions of loneliness, and depression, and emptiness: because nothing can precede what the flesh feel, I found comfort in God: and kept my labor for all things that He commanded unto me: and kept my heart for the charity of children. And all things needed were provided by God, which things came in the form of coincidences, and by the hand of people, but is God.
Now after fulfilling 11 years(from the day of my Revelation) of faith and trust in the things that cannot be touched or seen with human hands or eyes, I was commanded to return to the Gentile workforce in the fourth month of 1990: and I was rewarded by God with a prestigious job and blessed to fulfill the dreams that I had sacrificed 9 years prior. And I spent the next 7 years employed by a non-profit organization that serve children while I completed the Lamb's book of life, which amazingly is a little book that is both sweet and bitter, and sealed with seven seals on the backside. And when the book was done (that is to say written for the eyes of flesh), the book was showed to the Church of God and Saints of Christ first (the fourth month of 1997). And whereas Jesus received his Revelation at the age of 12 and disappeared until the age of 30, which was 18 years from the day of his Revelation to the day of his ministry: my life was also 18 years from the day of my Revelation to the day that the book of life was published. And whereas it only took Jesus 40 days to be cleansed before he began his ministry: It took me 4 years to be cleansed from the filthiness of my ways before I could begin my ministry. So I come not greater than Jesus, nor boasting of myself: but in the Spirit of Son of man: with all praise and worship to God. And my hour has come, which is the hour of the spiritual year 2000, whose eve on earth is known as March 31, 2001 (the eve of the Hebrew-Christian new year). Behold: For the hour come, and now is the hour, for the opening of the first seal of the Lamb's book of life to the world. And I Cornelius, the sacrificial Lamb of God: Called, and Chosen, and Anointed, by the Most High God, to come before you this day on the world wide web, with the Lamb's book of life, and a Stone of Truth, and Seven Keys: so that all souls might be saved; and that the blood of Christ might redeem you into his True Name: I am the Spirit of he that sit upon a white horse with the crown of Israel upon his head. And I call unto my holy apostles: and let them hear my voice: because they come at the sound of my voice. And I shall greet them in the Spirit of Prophecy: and salute them with a holy kiss. And they shall be unto me as mine: and unto you as divine. And let it be known: for the hour at hand is not March 30, but March 31: because the evening is the beginning of a new day. And the hour come: and now is the hour: For whosever seek Truth to find Truth.
I heard a man say that I am "ambitious". How am I ambitious, when I received my Revelation at the age of twenty, but come not before the world till the age of forty and two? How am I ambitious, when I tried to ignore unto this day, the Spirit that led me? How am I ambitious, when I ask for nothing: but receive ridicule, and laughter, and hate? How am I ambitious, when I live in a comfortable home, with a rewarding job, the envy of many, and a Soul-mate as a Wife? Ambitious is for those who seek the power of money, and the glory of fame. I seek not these things: but spend my own money, what little extra I have, and sacrifice my life that you may be blessed with the love of God that is given freely to me. For twenty and two years, I have been patient, and humble, and meek, in my service to the Almighty God. Call me not ambitious: for you speak as a fool: like many with intelligent words that come from the mind of a fool. And let my family, which is a blessed family, of wise men and women: know that he you knew as Neally has been ordained by God Himself from out of your seed. How great then is your seed? Take up the Seven Keys and the Stone of Truth: and the Lamb's book of life shall guide you into the Kingdom of God, which is not meat and drink: but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost.
Where is the first church to call for my testimony?: Let us see. Who is the first man to stand beside me?: Let us watch. Who is the first woman to stand beside me? There are many: but none greater than the pearl of the Orient: for she is a wife full of wisdom and sacrifice: a pillar of faith and charity: and an angel of God.
Look at my face and you shall see the face of Christ and nothing more: But look at my writings, and you shall see the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
And let no man think that religion or the name of a church will bring salvation: for salvation come only by the faith of Jesus Christ, whose faith is written on The Stone of Truth. And let the people say, Amen.
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